Sometimes I wish I could disappear.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

back frm camp... realised lots of stuff...

first abt the sec1s, i took them fer a day half... found dat they r really like babies... as in... really obedient towards Ester. they really damn crap... haha... wif Joseph being worst den his cousin. (as in crappier than his cousin. haha) well... really the joy of being a squad commander can be felt, especially the last day, when u see ur own squad preparing fer the farewell party fer Ms Long. I really feel dat the CIs have chosen the correct squad commanders. Ester- able to lead the sec1s well... to see her giving her sec1s onli 1 min to divide themselves into 3 grps, when the rest have 3mins. when she cried becos of the disappointment she had fer the squad when her squad misbehaved w/out her around. n she keeps blaming herself. Ester, i noe how u feel. really u shldnt lead spoonfeed them too much, though i feel that they must be spoonfed. they got to learn to be independent. u cant be wif them all the time. Jonatons- really gd NCO... lead his squad well too... see their enthusiasm... though sm ppl pon training. dats common. but Jay Jay turn up fer camp. really gd n impressive. gd job Jons. at least ur squad still got a lot of hope. Jia you. i m sure u will got a way to deal wif JJ. next Fiona- really impressive. haha... when CY n i took their squad. really cham. little respect shown to us. however. ur presence changed everything. they become more respectful, and less attitude probs. gd Fiona. haha... well... forgot to congratulate u on getting BUC. Congrats!

really. this camp has been the best camp, though i yearned to stay overnight. hmm.. really wanna praise JJ and Adrian. especially Adrian. really proud of him. really... he participated actively and one thing he said made me feel that he is a really potential cadet. haha.. though nt many ppl may think so, but he told me. the floorball comp is nt abt winning. its abt having the whole grp to play n enjoy together. really touched. hmm.. one tin abt Adrian words that if the unit was under him, he can push it up to be a gold unit, is that it made me feel that he actually thinks fer the unit. wad Fiona said dat he could not get a chance to join his squad fer drill really upsets me. he is a potential cadet. Fiona can see that too, though she disagreed wif me at first. he learns fast. neat. n can even be a efficient admin head, if given the chance. nt becos of the filing dat i judged him. but when i realised i filied the notes wrongly fer the sec1's training file, he was the onli one who helped me out by re-filing the notes. really touched n impressed. really. my vocab limited. haha.. so u all can see me repeating my stuff. Wilson- Adrian. help us NCOs to help him. haha i dunno if anyone noes wad i mean...

sec 1...omg... like water parade... had cooking lessons.. damn funny.. cant rmb wad they said. aniwae.. they like water parade so much. they wan me to join in, n wanna drink my water. i also realised y they like water parade so much. haha... John sir asked wad game they wanted, they replied water parade. so John sir said dat the water left in the bottle, after drinking wadthey can, can be poured on anione they wan. haha.. Joseph.. "sry sir, sry sir" as he poured his water on John sir. haha.. after the game, when John sir asked"want another round?" they chorused together "YES!" omg damn enthu. haha.. nv seen them like dat. haha.

third day. Ameer scared us by scolding the unit. even CZ said he nv pumped the whole unit b4. ppl say dat Ameer like rapping when scolding them.. dunno how to say lah. aniwae. John sir scolded them too. asked them touch the tree. sm cannot reach, so pulled the leaves. John sir say nv ask them to pull the tree, so asked them to apologise to it. they said "sry tree" but he asked is it tree no name. in the end. haha... they gave the tree a name"John tree" den everyone laughed, n John sir let them off.

haha. one more tin. tuition. cant imagine i forgot the time. omg. aniwae. the guys cc team went so cheeky, dat the whole unit laughed when Ms Long went into our girls' shelter. haha.

go hm dat time. haha. offered to help Joseph wif his bag. wah really dunno wad he carried. omg. aniwae. i helped him. but when he say Ester, omg, didnt noe dat really the sec1s not onli obedient, but scared of her. he immediately pulled the bag frm me, saying dat she'll scold if she saw me helping him. omg. cant stand him. he so small size. carry the bag so much heavier den mine. haiz. nvm

Ms Long's departure.
this is nt onli our sec4s last annual camp. very memorable, but also Ms Long's last. cc team prepared smtin special fer her. me, n Chiun Leong, mcs, went to host the show. i wasnt prepared. i could see Ms Long's happiness n xin wei when CL spoke. CL speaking was one of Ms Long's wishes. he has been so quiet. i almost cried when saluting to Ms Long. could see CZ's eyes turn red. to prevent me frm crying in front of everyone, i quickly clapped hands to allow everyone to follow, to let her speak her closing speech. (nt really shld i say closing speech. haiz) aniwae. when we willingly knocked it down fer her. she dun wan us to, i replied i nt pain. i cried when i said dat. really sad. i couldnt control my emtions le. haiz. she really contributed a lot fer the unit. k honest. all TOs have. haiz. i really dunno how to thank her. will nv forget her, and the time when she sent me hm after camp in sec 2 becos of gastric. Thank You Ms Long.
hope to see u.

"i noe dat we'll always be the golden cadets u want us to be, in ur heart "
~ "Pain arh, Pain arh"

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